As I have been reading thru the Bible I see that those who are called have lives I do not envy...
I see hardship, loneliness, exhaustion, always something.. My husband was very selfless and sent me to Montana for a retreat.. a time of rest before we add a new member to our family. Before I left I decided that I really want to use my time to SOAK into the WORD of God.. to see what God has to teach me.. SO What did I learn? What did God teach me?
Like the story of Elijah.. God sent a strong wind but God was not in the wind.. then an earthquake but God was not in the earthquake... God was the whisper...
And that was JUST how he spoke to me over the weekend in the quietness of my room.. He surrounded me with women who have been thru things and are going thru things I do not want to even think about!... nothing easy. hardship.. heart wrenching... I realized that the past few years I have been praying that God would use me.. USE ME.. He has put desires in my heart yet I am in such a different place.. And then seeing that those who are called do not have it easy and I thought.. "Do I want that?"
God put those 4 L words in my mind .. to LISTEN and LOOK, LEARN and LOVE.. and SO I did.. I took those words and applied to my weekend
AS I was about to head back home to the Carolina's, two people told me to JUST BE.. One of the women who God brought in my life and the other the Taxi Driver!..
Stop worrying .. and JUST BE..
Allow God to work allow Him to be my guide and to TRUST Him..
Excited to head home and apply what I learned ONLY to be Hit HARD with attacks from Satan...
And once again I felt like Elijah who after Mt. Carmel he sat under a tree and told God to take his life...
to be continued..
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